“All Alone, whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you’ll be quite a lot. And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.”
Dr Seuss must have been an over-analyzer too…or he just understood that the mind is a scary place that we all must face alone. As one who has been to many a therapy session (loony bin incl) and now studying to be the one who helps others make sense of their head I can’t help but be reminded how nobody can really get inside your head. Nobody can fix your head and nobody can be the sole comfort for when your head is a scary place… it all boils down to you. Your stuck with you and the only one who can ever really get to you or fix you is YOU. Seeing as you’re the only person really in there… and we choose what we allow in, don’t we?
Yesterday I was of the opinion that my boss made me feel worthless and inadequate. He had sat me down and proceeded to tell me that I am not proactive enough blah blah. So once he left I was launched into my head where I just got more and more upset. What was happening in my head was MUCH worse then what had actually happened in the meeting… I think? It all comes down to my own insecurities right? Someone else can’t really climb into my head and rearrange the neurons/chemicals/parts that trigger emotion and guilt. So these things are there already and were just brought up again by MY own sense of self, which is clearly having some issues. All I’m trying to get to, through fumbling through this blog today is that I need to get into my own head and straighten these thoughts out. If I were confident and more self-assured I wouldn’t have just sat there paralyzed…I would have opened my lovely mouth and given him a logical, strong and eloquent yet diplomatic reminder that I am his Au pair and NOT a maid. Pssshhh!
Hopping from box to box 